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Having\u00a0to constantly remind yourself that you have done your best
\nEven though that suicidal client made you second guess
\nBlaming you for their problems and the reason they will die
\nBut then the next day they stop by your office just to say hi
\nTrying to convince that client that she has many strengths
\nBut she tells you the tan line from her watch is the best she can name
\nThen opening up Facebook and seeing that she\u2019s passed
\nDepression got the best of her and was the reason she\u2019s laid to rest<\/p>\n

It\u2019s the letters and calls of the clients who you never thought cared
\nTelling you you\u2019re the best thing that\u2019s happened to them and the reason they\u2019re still here<\/p>\n

Having to stay strong when sitting across from the person talking about their rape
\nThat they\u2019ve been trafficked for years but people call her a whore and point the blame
\nShe is crying to you saying she had no other way
\nBecause her parents weren\u2019t there and she had nowhere to stay
\nBut that charming man offered her a bed and some love and affection
\nThen she wakes up to realize she was assaulted and he gave her an infection<\/p>\n

It\u2019s the little boys you just met who call you mom
\nSo you break down afterwards debating if you can adopt<\/p>\n

The four-year-old girl who says she hates cops
\nand you try to convince her they are safe and that’s part of their job
\nBut to her they were evil\u00a0as they constantly came to her home
\nBecause\u00a0her mother used drugs and sold dope
\nSo now she shutters under the blankets each time someone comes to the door
\nShe\u00a0screams bloody murder\u00a0and immediately hits the floor
\nNo amount of therapy or comfort makes it stop
\nShe will never feel safe\u00a0and will forever hate cops<\/p>\n

It\u2019s the cutter you found on the floor covered in her own blood
\nThen\u00a0calling her dad who says he won\u2019t pick her up
\nhe\u2019s burnt out and he\u2019s done
\nTrying to convince her life is worth it
\nBut she\u2019s been beaten down too many times and told she\u2019s worthless
\nThen leaving that day with a trauma-filled brain
\nBut it\u2019s your birthday that night so you fake a smile and choke down your cake<\/p>\n

The hyper-vigilance constantly haunting you
\nLooking around wondering who plans to buy a 14 year old girl to bring back to their hotel room<\/p>\n

Being scared to walk alone in the parking lot at night
\nKnowing\u00a0that you upset\u00a0a client\u00a0who may have a knife<\/p>\n

Having to kick that\u00a0guy out of treatment for his failed urine test
\nEven though you know he needs you more than the rest
\nBut\u00a0you have to follow rules as that is what’s ‘best’
\nbut that night you are restless
\nHe\u00a0won\u2019t ever know how much you cared
\nand that you really wanted to be there<\/p>\n

The dreadful news that another one has died
\nLost their precious life to suicide
\nAnd asking yourself what you could have done to change their mind<\/p>\n

It\u2019s watching foster children suffer through night terrors and missing their mom
\nYou\u00a0advocate and\u00a0fight but can\u2019t send them home
\nSo you hug them tight and hope they make it
\nTo not be the majority who drop out of school and never feel like they fit<\/p>\n

The boy who tells his mom to fuck off in group therapy
\nthat he hates her and she doesn’t amount to anything
\nShe breaks down because she can\u2019t take the pain
\nAnd you\u2019re supposed to know the right thing to say<\/p>\n

People reminding you to practice self care
\nBut what does that even mean
\nWhen you\u00a0break down in tears\u00a0and wake up from those awful dreams
\nNo amount of bubble baths, gym sessions, or journaling will make that better than it seems<\/p>\n

But through the turmoil and struggle
\nYou can\u2019t help but be thankful
\nFor the lives you have ‘saved’ and the people who know\u00a0you care
\nFor the ones that make you smile and realize life isn\u2019t fair<\/p>\n

That\u2019s why we help one another
\nAnd pick each other up
\nBecause fairness doesn\u2019t exist but through love we know we have done enough<\/p>\n

Knowing that you\u00a0have given some lives just a little glimmer of hope
\nBecoming\u00a0so resilient and being able to cope<\/p>\n

Sometimes it\u2019s hard but it\u2019s worth it when\u00a0you\u00a0meet that little girl
\nWho reminds you that you\u2019ve been helpful and made a huge difference in her world<\/p>\n

That is why we do it each and every day
\nWe smile through the tears and tell ourselves that we will be okay
\nTo be strong and empathetic because they have it worse than you
\nWith patience and acceptance, you make a difference<\/strong>
\nthrough and through<\/p>\n

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-keep shining<\/p>\n

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