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When Helping Hurts: Vicarious Trauma in Frontline Work

If you’ve spent any amount of time working with clients, survivors, or on heavy cases, whether as a social worker, advocate, law enforcement officer, medical professional, military personnel, or part of a multidisciplinary team, you already know this truth:

The work changes you.

Sometimes in beautiful ways. And sometimes in ways we don’t recognize until the weight becomes too much.
This is where vicarious trauma begins to take root.

It’s the subtle accumulation of the stories we hear, the pain we witness, the crises we respond to, and the bravery we hold space for. It’s the cost of caring deeply in careers where the need never slows down.

Having spent fifteen years in social work and nearly a decade specifically in human trafficking response, I’ve seen how quietly vicarious trauma can grow…not because we’re weak, but because we’re human. We care about safety, justice, and the wellbeing of the people we serve. Of course, their pain affects us. Seeing the worst of the world impacts us, no matter how skilled or committed we are. We are humans before we are professionals.

I was never taught about these impacts in school. No one warned us about the toll the work could take. It wasn’t until I stepped fully into the trafficking field that I saw how deeply the work was affecting me and my colleagues, the ones who started avoiding going home, drinking more, battling anxiety, becoming quieter, or slowly disengaging from clients and cases they once poured themselves into.


What Vicarious Trauma Is (and Isn’t)

People often lump everything under “burnout,” but these experiences are different. We can experience both of them (and all of the terms below), but the causes and impacts are not the same.

Vicarious Trauma

A cumulative shift in how we view the world, ourselves, and others, caused by ongoing exposure to trauma.

Think:

  • “Why am I suddenly more on edge?”
  • “Why do I distrust people more?”
  • “Why does the world feel less safe than it used to?”

Vicarious trauma is about worldview shifts, not just fatigue.

Secondary Traumatic Stress

Sometimes used interchangeably with vicarious trauma, but slightly different. Secondary trauma is an acute reaction to hearing traumatic material, mirroring PTSD symptoms.

Think:

  • intrusive thoughts
  • difficulty sleeping
  • hypervigilance
  • emotional numbing

Secondary trauma can come from a single and intense case, but overtime we are traumatized secondarily from all of the work we do.
For me, sometimes changing my child’s diaper becomes a big, emotional task due to the invasive thoughts I may have during a seemingly normal parenting moment. Witnessing and hearing about child trafficking/online exploitation and seeing those images and videos provides space for intrusive thoughts, which can start to impact daily functioning.

Burnout

Rooted in systems and workload, not trauma exposure. Most of us experience burn out on top of the other impacts that come directly from other people’s pain.

Think:

  • exhaustion
  • cynicism
  • feeling ineffective
  • being overworked and underpaid
  • loss of motivation

Burnout can happen in any job. It does not need to come from the high-stress, high-pressure and trauma-exposed work we do. And in fact, most of us probably have been burnt out of a job that had nothing to do with this type of work.

Compassion Fatigue

What happens when empathy meets chronic overload. It’s the emotional residue of caring for others without replenishing ourselves.

Over time, constant self-sacrifice can exhaust our capacity for compassion. We start to predetermine outcomes, disconnect from the “why,” and lose sight of the purpose that once drove us. The definition is literally in the term “compassion fatigue” which is also known as empathic strain.

Moral Suffering

Moral suffering happens when we are forced to navigate situations that violate our values, ethics, or sense of what is right. There are more specifics to this when we look into moral injury (a term that came from the military) and moral distress (a term from the medical field).

It happens when:

  • a trafficking survivor returns to their trafficker
  • the system fails again
  • charges are dropped
  • services are limited
  • a child is sent back into an unsafe environment
  • your team or agency restricts what you know is needed
  • a supervisor requests that you act in a way that conflicts with your belief system
  • you carry responsibility without having any power
  • moral and ethical conflict during deployments, including witnessing harm, being unable to intervene, or carrying responsibility for life-or-death decisions that have no “right” answer

Moral suffering shows up as:

  • anger
  • helplessness
  • guilt
  • grief
  • frustration toward systems
  • shame for not being able to “fix” it

And deeply, quietly, it can make us question ourselves:
Am I doing enough?
Why am I part of a system that keeps failing people?
How do I keep showing up when this feels so wrong?

Unlike compassion fatigue, which drains emotional energy, moral suffering strikes at the core of who we are: our values, integrity, justice, and hope.
For many of us, this is the deepest wound of all.


Why Frontline Responders Are So Vulnerable

The trafficking field is uniquely intense as are many other areas of frontline work. Our cases and clients aren’t navigating just trauma, they’re navigating:

  • complex victim–offender relationships
  • chronic exploitation and long histories of harm
  • systemic failures
  • stigma and misunderstanding
  • retraumatizing legal processes
  • cycles of running, returning, and surviving
  • experiences tied to military service, such as identity shifts after discharge, or difficulty reintegrating into civilian systems

We see the gaps. We feel responsible. We witness the darkest parts of humanity, and our nervous systems absorb far more than we realize.

Many of us also entered this work with our own why: our own histories and passions, wounds, and lived experiences that make us both powerful and vulnerable.

Our brains don’t fully clock out, not at home, not in bed, not even when we insist we’re “fine.”

Boundaries are hard in this work, and so is shutting off what we can’t un-know about the world. The problem is, many of us stop enjoying life outside of work and the people we care about feel that shift, too. Without boundaries, we burn out faster. And at some point, we have to ask ourselves: Would I want to work with me right now? Would I want to be my own partner, my own child? What would it feel like to depend on me as a victim of a crime?

When we fail to set boundaries, we don’t just harm ourselves, we unintentionally impact everyone around us.


Signs You Might Be Carrying More Than You Realize

If any of these resonate, you’re not alone:

  • Feeling emotionally heavy after certain cases
  • Becoming more protective of your own children
  • Feeling numb or detached
  • Difficulty trusting people
  • Intrusive thoughts and/or nightmares
  • Guilt taking time off
  • Constantly feeling “on alert”
  • Less capacity for relationships or hobbies
  • Feeling responsible for things outside your control
  • Self-medicating with drugs or alcohol (oftentimes starting subtly and increasing over time)
  • Overworking to avoid thinking about the work

These are not personal failures. They are warning lights; your body asking you to pay attention.


The Work Changes Us, So We Must Change How We Care for Ourselves

You cannot sustain this work if you refuse to care for yourself. I know how hard self-care feels in this field because the work never sleeps, and boundaries feel impossible. But if we don’t learn to care for ourselves, we move through life as traumatized little worker bees. And that is no way to live. We have to believe this stuff works.

Self-care is not indulgent. It is not fluffy, and it is certainly not something to feel guilty for. It is professional responsibility.

Here are some non-negotiables:

1. Build a routine.

Use habit stacking to pair an automatic habit like brushing your teeth or driving to work with something new.
Take five minutes after your first cup of coffee to meditate or check in with your family for a few minutes before the day gets hectic. Take time on the drive to work for silence, thinking about three things you are grateful for today. Do a body scan when you crawl into bed each night to check in with your physical self and ensure you are relaxed.

2. Stay connected to your “why”.

Purpose should motivate (not drain) you. Ask yourself: What is my purpose? What is my role today?
Spirituality often supports this. We lose ourselves in the work, and sometimes we forget to look for the higher powers we believe in to help ground us. Reconnect with your spiritual side and tap into your purpose through the things that give you hope.

3. Create boundaries that are actually boundaries.

Real boundaries say, “No, I can’t take another case today.”
Turn off notifications. Leave the work phone at home when you take vacation.
But also ask yourself: Why is this boundary hard? What fear does it bring up?

For me, it was fear that someone would be harmed if I didn’t respond, or that people wouldn’t depend on me anymore. So if you feel similarly to this, how can we move through some of this and start prioritizing ourselves? If we are not well, how can we help those who turn to us when they need it most? As we are reminded on every single flight, we must place the mask on ourselves before assisting others.

4. Lean into peer support.

The number one thing I hear across the nation is that people isolate when the work becomes too much or too heavy.
That is the moment connection matters most. Figure out how to tap into your circle of support, social hobbies, and colleagues who can be your sounding board.

Isolation fuels burnout but connection buffers it.

5. Normalize talking about the impact of the work.

We lose more colleagues to emotional injury more than physical danger.
Create spaces, at work and at home, where talking openly is safe and expected. The quickest way to make change is the normalize the experience and support one another as we move through it. We are all impacted differently from the work due to our own traumas, triggers, life experiences, current stressors and more. We cannot compare each other but we can be part of the change we need to ensure we are not losing another person to the hardships of the work.

The world is safer with us in it. Staying well is how we ensure it stays that way.

6. Stop glorifying self-neglect.

Exhaustion is not a badge of honor and we need to stop wearing it like one. How can we make adjustments? How do we remember that life is worth living? We are here to enjoy it, not suffer each day in silence.

7. Do something every week that you look forward to.

Movement.
Creativity.
Hobbies.
Friends.
Rest.
Joy.

These are survival strategies.


The Bottom Line

Vicarious trauma isn’t a sign that you’re “not cut out for this work.”

It’s a sign that you are deeply, beautifully human in a field that asks more of us than most people will ever understand.

The goal isn’t to avoid being impacted. The goal is to be impacted in a sustainable way; to allow the work to shape us without shattering us.

Those of us in the trenches deserve to stay whole.
We deserve to stay grounded.
We deserve to stay well.
And we deserve to have a full life outside the work.

Because the work is too important to lose the people doing it.

-keep shining

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Boundaries or Brick Walls?

We love a good boundary—especially because we know how hard they are to set in the first place. Boundaries are growth. Boundaries are healing. But if we’re being really honest… sometimes what we call a “boundary” is just a nicely worded way of saying, “No thanks, I don’t trust people anymore.” Or, “I’ve been burned too many times to let anyone in.” A wall with polite grammar is still a wall. Statements like these sound wise, maybe even empowered, but deep down it’s not always about peace—it’s about protection.

And while it might start as a survival strategy, it can quietly become a pattern of isolation we forget how to undo. We stop letting people get close—not because we’ve healed, but because we’re still afraid. We call it a boundary, but really, it’s a brick wall we’ve learned to live behind. We tell ourselves we are “protecting our energy”, but is that really the case?

This doesn’t just show up in our personal lives—it happens at work, too. Maybe you’ve been talked over in meetings one too many times, or trusted the wrong person with the right idea, and now your “boundary” is silence. Maybe you’ve been carrying more than your share for far too long and burnout has crept in—so now, pulling back feels like the only option. You start declining invites, turning off your camera, or keeping things surface-level. And frankly, you’re exhausted.

And that’s where boundaries get tricky: the intention might be care and self-preservation, but the impact can be disconnection.


✦ Wall or Boundary?

On the surface, they can look the same. But there’s a difference in the why behind them.

  • A boundary is rooted in self-awareness, communication, and a desire for healthy connection.
  • A brick wall is built from fear, past wounds, and a need for control or self-protection at all costs.

One brings peace. The other brings isolation.


✦ Why We Build Walls (and When That’s Okay)

All walls aren’t inherently bad; they can be necessary and warranted. Walls protect you during times where we are just trying to survive out here.

When you’ve seen too much, been overworked, dismissed, manipulated, gaslit, or walked all over, a wall can be a lifeline. It’s a “Do Not Disturb” sign when your nervous system is fried, personally or professionally.

But here’s the thing: walls are meant to be temporary and situational, rather than a full-on brick wall that is applied to all aspects of life. What protects you during survival mode can start to isolate you in healing mode. And that’s when you need to pause and check in:

  • Is this still serving me?
  • What is the actual purpose?
  • Does this wall prevent harm – or connection?
  • Is it keeping me from being successful, present, or fully seen?

✦ Brick Walls in Disguise

Typically, walls sound like:

  • “I just tend to shut down when I am overwhelmed.”
  • “I cut people out at times. It’s a me thing, not you.”
  • “I just cut people off when they act up. No time for nonsense.”
  • “I’m busy. Always. Perpetually busy.”
  • “People always leave, so I don’t get close anymore.”

These may feel empowering and self-respecting in the moment, but often, it is an avoidance strategy. It feels easier and safer. And while boundaries say, “I care about this connection enough to show up honestly within my limits” walls say, “Nope, I’m out.”


✦ So What Is a Boundary, Really?

A boundary says:

  • “I value this relationship enough to be clear about what I need.”
  • “Here’s how I can stay regulated and connected to myself while still being in relationship with you.”
  • “I’m not punishing you—I’m protecting my peace and letting you know how to be part of my life in a healthy way.”
  • “I love and appreciate my work, but I am more effective when I set limits.”

Boundaries require clarity, conversation, and vulnerability.
Walls require nothing—because they don’t allow anyone close enough to listen anyway.


✦ When Brick Walls Turn Into Shame

Sometimes, our brick walls aren’t just about fear. Brick walls can turn into guilt, leading to shame and pushing us further into isolation.
We feel guilt for needing space from our jobs. Guilt for not showing up for those we care about. Guilt for not being “over it” already…
…Shame for not feeling grateful enough, healed enough, “chill” enough. Not feeling ready enough to re-engage; ready enough to work harder.

And so, instead of setting clear boundaries with honesty and compassion, we ghost. We vanish. We overcompensate or shut down. We develop unhealthy coping strategies. We try to protect ourselves, but at the cost of connection and the ability for others to depend on us.

The guilt that comes with setting boundaries is real. I’ve had to unlearn the idea that needing space means I’m letting people down—because loving others and loving my work doesn’t mean I have to be available 24/7.
That’s especially tricky when your profession revolves around caring for others… and you have a deeply ingrained habit of over-functioning and people-pleasing (me!). But I’ve learned that setting healthy boundaries doesn’t make me less committed—it actually helps me stay present instead of disappearing or spiraling.

Still, I check in with myself:
Is this boundary giving me space to breathe… or is it a wall I’ve built to avoid something?


✦ How to Know Which One You’re Building

Ask yourself:

  • Does this create more peace or just distance?
  • Am I avoiding a conversation I need to have—with others or myself?
  • Is this coming from my healed self… or my hurt one?
  • Am I protecting my peace or avoiding something?
  • If I could guarantee my safety, would I show up differently? (re-read this one three more times)

Sometimes a wall can feel like a win—because you don’t have to explain yourself. You don’t feel misunderstood, and you create a reason not to show up. But healing doesn’t happen in isolation; you can’t grow when you avoid.


Walls are easier. Boundaries are braver.

Walls say: “I’ve been hurt, and I won’t let that happen again.”
Boundaries say: “I’ve been hurt, and I’m learning how to be safe while staying connected to myself, my job, and others.”

It’s okay to have a season of walls. But don’t forget you deserve to live a life where you can breathe, connect, and trust again.

Walls keep everybody out. Boundaries teach people where the door is – and how to knock respectfully. ~

-keep shining
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The Gift Of Giving…To Yourself.

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I’ll be honest, the this time of year is really difficult for me. Along with all the parts I look forward to around the holidays such as gift-giving, parties, paid time off, traditions with family, and Christmas treats also comes a caseload of clients that doubles in size overnight. Every year I tell myself I will be stronger, I tell myself that it will get better, and remind myself that I can’t save the world; I can’t bring the world home with me for Christmas. But, every year I still break down and cry…A lot.
The holidays are usually a time that I reflect on the clients I have had the privilege to work with over the years. I recall their stories, and I remember that many of them do not have the opportunity to receive or give gifts, to go to parties, to take off work, to spend time with family, or to have a warm meal to eat….
I have mourned with kids in psychiatric facilities whose family did not visit them over Christmas. I have been a shoulder to cry on for a man who had no one to spend the holidays with, and was too embarrassed to tell anyone about it. I have tried to find the silver lining for the girl who told me that she has never opened a Christmas gift in her life. And I continuously work with individuals whose behaviors escalate around the holidays due to the trauma they’ve endured, and then watching as those around them lose empathy because they do not understand it.
I can’t keep up with the demands of the job because I cannot make people’s pain disappear, and the holidays alway remind me of that. It’s hard for me to look forward to time with my own family when I spend the days leading up to the holidays in constant crisis mode with my clients who have been sexually assaulted, physically and emotionally abused, and have nowhere to go. I struggle to leave work at work and take a break because I know someone might need me, and I can’t be there for them…This is called secondary trauma, or compassion fatigue, if you will, and it can affect any one of us at any given time. We take on our clients’ problems and stress, we let their stories affect our personal lives,  we develop our own triggers, we become hyper-vigilant, and ultimately we burn out. That’s why people who work in the helping profession often have a high turnover rate…we give too much of ourselves.
I always ask myself whyWhy do I get to look forward to the holidays when it brings so much pain to some people? I get mad that the world isn’t fair and get discouraged because there is nothing I can do to change that. At the end of the day,  I always remind myself that I have done my best, but sometimes telling myself that isn’t enough to make the pain and frustrations dissipate. It isn’t enough to ‘leave it at the door’ when I get home because I am still empathizing with those less fortunate than myself. If I only had a nickel for every time someone asked me how I take care of myself with such an intense job, I think I’d have enough money to buy every client plenty of gifts to go around! That being said, the way I get by each holiday and stay sane is to take care of myself and keep my compassion fatigue in check. Regardless of your field of world and how stressful or enjoyable your job may be, we all need to take care of ourselves and be sure we put ourselves first sometimes.
Here are some quick and easy ways I do that:

1. Check In…. I check in with myself every day; physically, mentally, and emotionally. I tune into how tense I am, what is causing me stress and/or joy, how tired I am, what I am thinking about, etc… Just check in and take a pause. Know where you are at and be mindful of yourself, first and foremost. This can take no more than 5 minutes, but it ensures that each day you don’t forget about yourself and become mindful of how you feel. This helps me approach each day more thoughtfully and think about myself throughout the day, which is easy for me to forget to do.
Click here for another perspective on checking in.

2. Be Kind… Not only to others, but to yourself. Be easy on yourself. Know that you are working hard. We get ridiculed enough in this society as it is, the least you can do is be nice to yourself and give yourself a compliment now and again. You  can always find something positive to say about yourself, and make it a daily habit. It’s easier to be kind on the outside when we are first kind on the inside. And I find myself more kind to others when I am first kind to myself. By being more kind to myself, I have actually found that mean/rude people don’t bother me as much; I am nice to people even when they aren’t nice to me. And sometimes that is just what they need because clearly they’re having a worse day than I am.

3. Focus on what is in your control… As you could have guessed, I can’t bring all of my past and current clients home with me for the holidays. Clearly, that is out of my control. I need to remind myself of the actions I have taken to try and produce the best outcome, but the outcome itself isn’t something I can predict. The holidays may bring extra frustrations or unpredictability, but it does no good to be upset over something I cannot do anything about.
When things arise that cause anxiety and frustration, just check in and ask yourself what about that situation you’re able to change, do it, and leave the rest behind.

4. Take Breaks… Let me spell it out for you, PTO…P-A-I-D   T-I-M-E   O-F-F. I know it’s hard to imagine, but the world will still revolve in your absence. People will get by if you’re not there. You earned time off, take it. We all need breaks. If we don’t take breaks we are burning ourselves out and that only affects the people around us, and the clients we are trying to serve. We cannot be our best selves in the work place if we are not taking breaks. Life is more than just working all the time. Try to rid yourself of the guilt because if you aren’t your best self for you, you sure as heck can’t be for anyone else. Breaks help give us some clarity and relief. Enjoy that vacation in Hawaii!

5. Cry… I hate crying. I hate it. And I do not do if often, so when I do I know that it’s needed. And every time I break down I feel better. We have emotions, people! We always get mad and embarrassed with ourselves for feeling the way we feel rather than just accepting it and letting it flow. You can’t control your emotions, but you can control how you react to them.
We have to get our feelings out and be honest with ourselves. Not only does it feel better and help us come to terms with things, but it brings a sense of relief. And it ensures you that you won’t go and unexpectedly word vomit your emotions onto someone else.
Click here to read another one of my blogs on this topic.

6. Decide what self care means to you…. In my trainings, when I ask people what self care means to them, often they say things like taking a bath, going on vacation, getting their nails done, going hunting, etc.. But self care is SO much more than that. Really ask yourself what self care means to you, it’s more than just this surface-level stuff. Dig deeper, there’s always more we can be doing for ourselves to ensure our happiness and health is where it needs to be. My self care absolutely includes vacations, getting my nails done, playing basketball, etc.. But it also includes all of the helpful tips above plus many more.
One of my favorite self care exercises is what I simply refer to as happy thoughts. Sometimes it is easy to let negativity sink in without even recognizing it. It’s these times when we don’t give ourselves enough credit and say something hurtful about our character or our physical appearance. So, when that happens I practice what it referred to as ‘thought stopping’ in the social work world, and replace those icky thoughts with one of my handy dandy happy thoughts I keep stored away.

We all have tough days, and we need to be easier on ourselves in order to get through them. A little gratitude, kindness, and self love can go a long way.

If your compassion does not include yourself, it is incomplete ~

-keep shining

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